11.10.2010
Culminating Semester Portfolio
MFA-IA Final Portfolio
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6.01.2010
Dynamo Commutator Experiment
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I begin with the claim that all poetry is a performance; even when a poem is fixed on a page it still performs. To move a poem to other media is simply a multidimensional close reading. The Dynamo Commutator project develops the use of media other than the standard printed page for the transmission of poetry + digital imagery. The next stage is to collaborate with others to add their art / poetry / music + hyperlink edits.
12.11.2009
This is Not an Exit
VUE Map: Concept mapping (sometimes referred to as ‘mind-mapping’) as a learning tool has been documented in 40+ years of cognitive science research. The Visual Understanding Environment (VUE) is a concept and content mapping application, developed by Tufts University to support teaching, learning and research. Simple tools and a basic visual grammar consisting of nodes and links, maps and/or organizes relationships between concepts, contexts, ideas and digital content in non-linear ways.
Rhizome is a philosophical concept developed by Gilles Deleuze and FĂ©lix Guattari in their Capitalism and Schizophrenia (1972-1980) project. Based on the botanical rhizome, it is what Deleuze calls an "image of thought" that apprehends multiplicities. Rhizome describes theory and research that allows for multiple, non-hierarchical entry and exit points in data representation and interpretation.
Carl Jung used the term rhizome to describe the universal unconscious, the presence in all people of a set of shared images and their significance. The Internet and its rapidly spreading communities is described as a rhizome. It is also gaining rapid momentum in pedagogy, particularly when utilizing Internet and computer-based technologies.
Rhizomes oppose the idea that knowledge must grow in a tree structure (arborescent) from previously accepted ideas. New thinking need not follow established patterns, new conceptual territories result from unpredictable juxtapositions. The root of the rhizomic plant needs to be close to the surface to flower, as does rhizomatic thinking need to be present in daily life to affect thought. It is an open system, most effective as a tool when personally incorporated, accessing the concept of rhizome through experience.
With this motivation, I cast the rhizome as a site of defiance to the arborescence of packet documentation, progress “report” narrative and—thinking forward—to the structure of the Final Portfolio. I believe my process, practice and acquiring knowledge has always dodged linear interpretation. My challenge was to think more originally, through thinking more organically.
How to articulate the complexities of art and art-making, subjects that are conceptually and methodologically both personal and global. Off-shoots ricochet in all directions; classification seems impossible; the task of selecting and following interactions, terms and relations are massive. How to think this?
As artists, we are faced by a need to find alternative ways to analytically respond. Artists recognize the skills necessary in the process: acute observational skills, intermingling experience with theory and practice, 'fieldwork' of an experience, and coming to new realizations, often in manner difficult to detect. To capture the ways in which I understand and see certain associations unfolding in my field of study, I responded to the concept of rhizome as a new way of 'thinking' these connections.
By the end of the semester, I began creating a Visual Understanding Environment (VUE) map as an act of bridging gaps between the conceptual, methodological and experiential. I downloaded the free and open-source software and learned the capabilities of the current version of the program. 'Fieldnotes' of a kind were kept by a semester-long journaling experiment, and it is through reflection on these, the map resulted.
Describing how connections and 'rhizomatic' thought appear in the everyday is a difficult task. The VUE map has a larger purpose than creating a system of interlinked concepts. It has to show what that system does; so I will be continuing forward with this project into G4, along with developing a pedagogy with a rhizomatic perspective.
12.01.2009
The Moon + Digital Collage
This is 22" in diameter. Was a concrete encrusted lid when I found it on a jobsite. It's meant to be exhibited on a floor..
Collage is about shifting relationships, willfully dismantling assumptions and rearranging them to suggest what is conceivable. Collage makes use of contradictions. It is the medium of surprise and hopefully startles us out of ambivalence.
I am blatantly using my poetry in these pieces. What you are seeing here is a digital sketch for the painting. I am planning to apply black stick-on vinyl letters for the text. Or maybe white vinyl letters (?) The decision will be made in the doing- I am intentionally disengaging hand writing with chalk on the chalkboard surface- it’s too obvious and less ironic. That said, if the vinyl letters don’t work for this piece, I could chalk over them, remove them, and leave the negative space of their past presence…
Audre Lorde wrote: "It is not those differences between us that are separating us. It is rather our refusal to recognize those differences, and to examine the distortions which result from our misnaming them and their effects upon human behavior and expectation." Sister Outsider (pg 115)
Talking with my students over the past 5 semesters, it is obvious that we are of a time that, particularly for young men and women, is not very cordial to idealism. The early 21st century is characterized by a cynical worldview; the danger is not to have the hope to affect change. Anger is as disjointed as our communications; there is too much to be angry about. There are so many issues, all at once, that sometimes we feel powerless.Most of these young women and men—in group discussion—reject ideological generalizations of the sexes. Young women do not call themselves feminists, they consider it part of who they are. They say they stand up for up for themselves. But the question is, will they stand up for other women?
11.06.2009
Re-vision
A Memory I Recognize, As Though We Had Been Children Together
Titled from a line in the poem The Pond by Louise Gluck
“When painters feel the need to make a shift toward self-discovery, they turn to black and white for a time.” An unverifiable quote from Barnett Newman.
It is impossible to justify everything by the logical. Andre Breton wrote about the sublime point (le point sublime) with which some part of the human mind communicates directly. The key to our mental prisons, a device for liberating thought, is the free play of analogies. In the case of automatic writing, it is the word that is "found" and a voice is given to objective chance. The find, whether object or word, represents communication between the mind and the world.
The changes for this painting actually came to me in when I was involved in some routine blah, blah, blah…but I knew I wasn’t satisfied with this piece for months (it was part of G2packet 4). It had been sitting on a shelf in my living room—where I don’t live much these days—passing it by on way in and out of the house. All of the painting antagonized me: ground color, the metallic red wire, the rusted concept…I took the spray paint to it- all matte finishes, no shine, I needed it to be more absorbent of light, physically. I wanted it to be more powerfully graphic.
My first intent was to spray it completely white. I stopped here to live with it and see what happens. There’s a process of listening to the paintings. I know when to stop if I can acknowledge its identity, its “wholeness”, its ability of converging meaning in ways I find interesting.
G3 Packet 3+4
9.28.2009
Ellipses...
9.04.2009
Sand Found at the Bottom of a Bag from Last Summer
G3 Packet 1
In the PriceChopper, I collided with a display of mussels on chipped ice. Clumped together on wave-washed rocks, they had moved slowly, attaching and detaching their byssal threads to attain a better life position. Now stacked and bound in red net bags, I am struck by the glossy blue-black shells, their beard remnants snapped shut on damp prismatic chambers. I look at them until I’m excused out of the way by someone wanting the tilapia. Heat will cook the mollusks open, revealing moist and edible considerations. Open shells caught in a shriek—before they hit the pan—must be discarded.
I scribbled the word “mussels” on my grocery list and tucked it back into my purse. Driving home from the store, I was thinking about seeing the mussels, and my art work; that art at its best is found, starting with the inside of a painting rather than it’s surface, the content of the poem rather than its figures of speech. Looking at my studio or my paintings, this doesn’t appear to make sense; I collect and am inspired by things with surface qualities. My poems are formed with similes, metaphors, textures of imagery. I admire and take pleasure in craftsmanship, rhythm and composition. But—for me—the craft can’t be an end in itself. I would not work so hard if it were only about the well-made object. The art is within the painting, the poem (whatever discipline) at the center, deeper down; it’s what the craft works on. When the “language” combines with the meaning to make us experience what we understand, we find the art.
“Finding” a poem or a painting is finding resonance; subterranean sources that power the subjects and ideas put into the artwork. My sources will be different from someone else’s: maybe it’s family, politics, gender, love and sexuality, fears and secrets. Whatever I am made of, I’ll need to dig it up and feed it to my work.
This is an experiment combining my poetry with painting. Most of the poem’s text is literally embedded in the painting- no pun intended (well, maybe); it’s stamped into the painted wood surfaces. Full text of the poem was displayed as the title in my current exhibit. I might need to let go of this literal-ness in the future for this experiment to succeed. Why? I’m not sure beyond a gut level response and convincing psychological self-analysis that I’m holding onto making the poem so obvious because I want my poetry read, instead of what the painting could become. I don’t want my paintings to “illustrate” the poem. If the text is now part of the painting, I am opposed to closing down other sensory experiences because of our immediate response to words. This is a difficult balance for me to find; I am probably banging some experienced viewers over the head in the meanwhile.
Exquisite Encounters Book Project
I spent 2 weeks researching for this project. I found many “altered book” sites with interesting images and techniques on the internet, however I was more interested in making conceptual art rather than a technique-driven pretty/ gritty craft project. Searching “book arts” returned valuable motivation. My favorites are: Women’s Studio Workshop, Minnesota Book Arts Center MCBA prize and Book Arts Web.
After ransacking my bookshelves for a suitable sacrifice, I realized I didn’t want to take that route. I make art not only with found materials, as a musty book would be, I also utilize mundane materials in alternative ways. The most intriguing books in my childhood (still are) were pop-ups. One of my favorite books, read to my daughter, was The Jolly Postman. This book has actual envelopes addressed to fairytale characters with letters you can take out and read! Yes, it is a federal crime to open Red Riding Hood’s mail but this book is oh so tactile and gratifyingly nosey! Memories of this book are with me and I dug it up for my project.
Paper bags are simple and utilitarian, often overlooked until you need to cover a textbook or make a hand puppet. By the way, the manufacturing process was invented by a woman. In the “greening” process, cooler bags and cloth shopping bags are overtaking paper. I still use them on occasion and found the lunch sized sacks scattered about my pantry. I wanted to have open pages in my book and hidden compartments.
The theme concept evolved from the everydayness of the brown paper bag and the seen/unseen of their structure: How power structures everyday life, how art participates in our abilities to make things change and move. We can and do shift power all the time. We are also shifted around ourselves by power in many forms. My book encounter is about investigating where power is located in your everyday life and how an art form can analyze this.
I typed the theme and the origin of the word “matrix” on recycled library catalog cards. Aside from its ubiquitous tie to the movie, we use matrix (like many words) in a variety of disciplines, often without knowledge of its origins. After my discovery, it then became a forceful underpinning for the concept.
The inside front cover was based on the Rorschach inkblot test. We are all familiar with the fun of inkblots; it’s the questions of subjectivity and assessment that are disturbing. Mine somehow and serendipitously can be seen as a musclebound figure with an aggressive display stance- breasts floating away… How about that for analysis?!
Inside the cover bag is the matrix card, a poem by Adrienne Rich and a fortune teller game we play as children. The poem should be obvious. The fortune teller is a game but also about luck, fate and power. As girls, many were designed to predict our romantic futures. The color black was chosen for it’s western symbolic references: solemn, grief, evil. Also elegance, authority, stability, wealth, reverence, respect and slimming. In many eastern cultures black symbolizes wisdom, harmony, and reflection. I plan to refine this element later, having come to better production ideas after my book was sent.
The 1st book I received was from Jennifer, her theme: How do we define use? Jen taped her pages closed in true Dada spirit of the project! My entries (seen in the Picasa album) are about emotional and concrete (ab)use. The response is meant to be experienced in the pages, no need to overstate with post-production details.
PRACTICUMI was present for the 3 cards from the restaurant’s music night and was able to facilitate. I only provided black sharpies, scissors and a glue stick, retrieved from my purse like Mary Poppins. Sheila dug through her handbag for materials and used lipstick for color. The other 2 cards were made by people sitting at a nearby table. Their interest evident, I invited them to make a card. They joined the project enthusiastically but shyly. As it turned out, a man I spoke to briefly that evening (but do not remember) expressed his interest in me to Sheila the following week. Art generates romance?
I brought cards (alone) to the bar where my paintings are exhibited, but nobody was interested. It appears to be more inviting when there is more than one person- a group effect.
The collage series were made at a family gathering to celebrate Jessi’s (my daughter) 21st birthday. With insights of family, there are personalized perceptions running through this pack of results! There were six adults and one 7 yr old. I don’t want to analyze the individual cards, too much backstory. There was surprise that I brought art materials and a project. And hesitation. Informed that this is a degree project, created emphasis for participation-it would be cold to say no at this point. Did I facilitate or manipulate? I’m okay with the ethics here.
Most every initial response includes insecurity about creativity and what to make. Here, I offered to suggest topics if they got stuck, but once the magazines/collage materials were out on the table, everyone found a start. Looking through old National Geographics is usually an adventure in itself. We worked at this for a good 2 hours! My sister-in-law, the most self-defining as non-creative/non-artistic, actually made very interesting cards. My brother wanted us to “read” the meaning of his card and see if we “got” his intentions. Their 7 yr old wouldn’t commit to his card- if his idea doesn’t turn out perfectly, he won’t do it. My Mom+Dad made cards with the same topic- not a surprise. Jessi’s first card expressed her current romantic state and the second was more playful and abstract.
I plan on moving onto the park and a farmer’s market in the next weeks. I may do some with a 4H group. I’ll be setting up a blog for these cards in the next 3 weeks so people can view their cards and the project as a whole.
Poetry
6.20.2009
Poetry
Impinging Against an Array of Very Thin Tines
If I could just touch her wrist, without
her grabbing my hand. Mama bends backwards,
tweaking the lawn chair, gripping
the arms. She says the stars are twitchy
sequins on a black velvet ballgown.
Mama wishes on a sequin:
“ ........................................”
I don’t ask.
Mama has a name
she won’t use.
The fat man that used to live here,
he really gave it to her.
Made her cook Steak-umms and watch his T.V.
One night, when he flips
through the channels, Mama whispers,
“.......................................... ”
He took the dog, left
with his names still on her.
Mama’s new man
has a red beard,
wears a black hat,
won’t change his underwear. He says: “Shut up,
I don’t get dirty from sitting in a chair all day.”
Mama can’t sleep. She says
stars crumble down at night, leaves
all those twitchy sequins on her.
Mama gives me her old jewelry box
lined in black velvet and lint. It winds up
in the back, the coil releasing
hesitant pings.
Producing and Opening a Very Tiny Umbrella
Things accumulate:
Breakfast bowls, coffee
mugs, dinner plates, utensils.
I can’t keep wishing
all day and undoing
it every night, curled into
my tight hot portion of space.
In another room, our daughter is
watching cartoons; thwaps,
plunks, zoom whistles,
her giggles, hover
in spring cobwebs.
The faucet fills the sink.
The sponge is heavy with soap.
A papercut stings.
Water will always run
through my fingers, until drained
of feeling. If I could
scoop it up, screw down a lid,
I’d know
where the tears went.
The dishes are done
and now you show up
in the kitchen, wavin’ your
deedle-dee at me! My face
is intent on nothing,
not a wish, not a dare,
I just see It dangling—
Someone else has been with me
in a room with a desk,
in a room with a bed, someone
who touched my face
and everything that was not there
was at least felt
with just enough air
to make a sigh.
And now your brutal
knowledge of me collects
in the sounds of your mouth
so fast, your words are spaces
the pain slices through—
and through,
Reflections on the Motive Power of Heat
Everything in the universe, except
the system, is known as
surroundings. Noticed from the street,
is my kitchen window and I’m preparing
a dinner,
for two, maybe
three or four—
The system is separated from
the remainder of the universe
by a boundary. Wedged in
a small triangle
of space, between
stove, sink, refrigerator,
I’m balancing on the most exquisite
clay feet.
For closed systems, boundaries are real.
For open systems, boundaries are often
imaginary. I am waiting
on the porch; it’s much brighter
out here than I expected. Why do I
remember the arrow of time
more often as raining, when it was summer
twilight? With our quiet evening voices
and fireflies, whirling
like particles of lust
in the slanting light.
The possible exchanges of work, heat,
or matter take place across
a boundary. Darkness is delivered
to the ground: it could not be stopped.
Headlights pass my driveway, turn
down the street; someone passing by,
on their way to contentment
or disappointment.
The potential energy of a hairspring
works in any state of oscillation.
Tap/up/tap/down, I’m standing here
long after the view has changed,
attached to a linear spring.
If love is to be done
at a finite rate, free energy is subject
to an irreversible loss. There’s nothing
here that I don’t already
know, like vivid snapshots
waiting to be taken.
As time passes in an isolated
system, internal differences
tend to even out.
One weird little horn blare
happens for half a second—
ice melts, diluting
the water in my glass—
sliding on a rough surface, slowing
down rather than speeding up—
all measures of how far along
this evening-out process has progressed.
A certain amount of light is required
for the demon to "know"
the whereabouts of all the
particles in the system. In the noise
of crickets and a wobbly ceiling fan,
our molecules combined. Left alone,
they won’t separate out again.
The curves of my body press
into the muscle of his, rolled together
like a set of plans.
Quantum, in Latin, means how great?
Or how much? There’s the curve of his back,
bent over to lace up his boots. I think
over time, ignoring the effects
of self-gravity, differences in
temperature, pressure, and density
I’d be forgiven.
* title based on an 1824 book Reflections on the Motive Power of Fire and on Machines Fitted to Develop that Power, by French physicist Sadi Carnot, a preliminary outline of the Second Law of Thermodynamics